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mood : questioning.. what more...

rasa rasa.. payment Turnkey & Audit 5S satgi boleh buat orang kat ofis meletup~! next will be pre-audit SEMS... siapa yg meletup dulu agaknya? hmmm

kita lihat kesan langsung dan tak langsungnya soon~~~~~~~~~~

mood : havin a headpain
songs :
Augustana - Boston
Cake - You Turn The Screws
Bachelor Girl - Buses and Trains



lately... in my fb... my twitter... i talk a lot of bad things n stressful about work~... as if im hating my work.. hating the environment...

no no no

actually.. its the way people manage work... n how i see the work just keep pending n pending... where most of it is at my desk~ duh~~

u know when its at the state of you need to be worried bout it.. that at any time... one of those work will ask you questions~ haha not like the file will talk to you :P but you get the message rite?

being pushed is ok.. i personally need that pressure... but not asking for illogical outcome... tapi camana pon... any illogical output/dateline yang depa set.. there are WAYS to get there or just to CHEAT so?

at the end of the day... you are not an executive if you JUST DO WORK.. kalau nak macam tu.. sila jadi kerani or typist or proofreader or maid kat ruamh

just jangan salah anggap.. im expressing my thoughts a lot just to release the stress and im making myself see my job in a diff perspective... which is?

from the customer perspective~!

stressful? i admit.. im getting thinner~ didnt scale my weight yet.. maybe just drop 1-3kg. pipi da tak tembam. perut da kurang gendut

sorry sweetie if i made you worried~ im ok... just my selera makan terganggu

mood : winduuu~
songs :
Alicia Keys - Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart



looking at my desktop gadget weather here... its Rain in Setiawan (nearest to Lumut)...

since petang tadi thunderstorm n now rain~ hope my sweetie all ok n having so much fun over there~ and also build up a more positive view from apa yang dia belajar/buat/nampak di sana~

OBM is challenging mind n physical.. but also so much fun :)

wishing you good health n fun time there my fiancee~ :xoxo:

mood : hectic yet angau nearly~
songs:
colbie caillat - magic
moby - extreme ways

waaaa so ngantuk actually but so excited dapat balik dengar all my music collection from my old lappy.. finally finished personalizing all my lappy n my housemate pc as well...

alah blank plak~
ni mesti... angau punya pasal neh~ wiu wiu.. missing my fiancee very much... especially bila terkenang kembali lagu Magic tu~

takpe sambung later~ esok nak bangun pagi.. mak mau datang pi KL

mood : spoil~
songs :
Boys Like Girls - Two Is Better Than One (feat. Taylor Swift)
Ne-yo - Never Knew I Needed
Kesha - Tik Tok



5.05am my alarm on my nokia rang.. which is suppose to make me wake a bit so that the next alarm at 5.10am i can easily awake and wake my sweetie up for work~

but...

celik je mata 5.05 my lower abs sakit kaw kaw... macam udang da badan aku menahan.. 2x blacked out around 20-40sec sebab tatahan sakitnya... in a scale of 9 kalo ikut atas tu punya pic

gagahkan juga call my sweetie wake her up at 5.10 in a very shaky voice n nak cepat... then i blacked out again n i guess i fall asleep once tersedar... at 6am... mula cirit birit~ time tu scalenya around 6

after subuh lega sekejap... around 7.10am i suppose to wake up n go to work... from sakit tahan 4 bila bangun je pi tahap 8 trus baring balik... SMS puan, have to EL today... coz? takut kena sakit macam kol 5am tu while im driving hmmmm mmg pitam sambil memandu la jawabnya...

such a downer... rugi 1 working day when there are A LOT of things pending bcoz of me

wake up at 10am then siap2 pi klinik nak amik MC... its level 3 at the time... byk ubat sachet diberi... n Dr cakap i have to eat roti n bubur only until my pewut btol btol 0 pain level~

then went to YTN.. time tu until im writing now level 4 pain... as if like sakit lebam kena pukul la... tahan la skit tp muka agak flushed (pucat)... haa kat sini yg buat spoil mood neh...

nak anto 1 doc about my sweetie punya loan thingy coz da masuk TNB... the counter person mcm ganti the counter lady yg slalu kat depan la... i only ask... "bang, nanti tolong buat fotokopi sehelai borang tu boleh?"

trus je jawab "eh... adik buat sendiri la.. saya tak boleh tinggal kaunter ni nanti saya buat sapa nak jaga?~"

hmmm so aku kasi je borang tu.. biar dia ceraikan n cop terima (sampai masuk dalam ofis dia around 1minit nak carik stapler then i ask the same request... dia jawab the same thing...

haih... sehelai je bang~.. trus aku amik n pi upten fotokopi n datang balik anto borang tu... last week tak disuruh pon siang2 dia tolong fotokopikan satu set 10 helai lagi~ huuu...

mmg spoiler mood today la~

really wanna do work from home... but my perut cant make me fokus~.. takpe la... hope malam ni ok... coz have to finish all the sachet medicine yang kena minum dengan air sejuk every hour~

later~ daaaa

p/s: Happy 32nd month anniversayry my darling sweetheart.. Moga hubungan kita bkekalan n dberkati.. Few days lagi kita berdua da nk bertunang.. Time flies kan~ walau apa pun u r the one in my mind, my heart, my soul.. Love you,alwiz hav, will b n 4ever :xoxo: